Since the childrens Father left 7 weeks ago both of my children have been suffering with terrible dreams. They are so bad that they are scared to go back to sleep alone. Big Bird says she is having adult dreams, when she explained it to me she said they have adults being hurt in them and sometimes monsters are involved. Its so upsetting for her that she ends up sleeping in my bed 3 or 4 times a week.
Little Bird keeps dreaming about being left and that really concerns me. He has told me that he keeps dreaming about his Father leaving him, when this happens he wakes up crying. Its really hard to deal with because there is nothing I can say or do to make him feel better, so kisses and cuddles are all I can give him. He has also been dreaming that when he is out and about with me and Big Bird, we leave him behind in places. Its so upsetting for me to hear that because I would never leave him anywhere. Last week he woke up crying because he was dreaming me, him and Big Bird where at the shops and we got into a lift, but he didn’t get in and the doors shut and we left him behind. As the doors on the lift closed he cried out in his sleep until I went in to cuddle him, he was in a right state but I reassured him that I wouldn’t leave him anywhere and squeezed him until he felt better.
It breaks my heart that my children are suffering with terrible dreams, I have one of the children in bed with me nearly every night. Its the only way they will go back to sleep and I understand why, I don’t mind them sleeping in my bed but it does get awkward when they both want to join me on the same night. That happened on Sunday night, Big Bird was already in with me and Little Bird woke up scared, in the end I had to jump in Big Birds bed with Little Bird it took him 2-3 hours to go back to sleep because he was wide awake from his terrible dream. Its times like this that its hard being a single parent because I can not physically split myself in two, it makes me sad that both of us are not here to help the children when they need us most.