Just recently I was asked to fill out a questionnaire about my life, I will explain later on this week to why. When I came across the question ….. Do you have any regrets in life? That really got me thinking. If someone would have asked me that question last year I would have said “No, I have absolutely no regrets in my life.” But unfortunately we are not living in 2012 its 2013 and now this questions has a whole new meaning to me.
I have been thinking long and hard about regrets recently and it would appear I do have them. I regret trusting and letting a person into my life for such a long period of time, giving them my all for it all to end in tears. I regret giving the person I love and trusted so much of my time and my life and more importantly giving them two of the most amazing gifts of all time, gifts that some families can only dream of.
As friends and family have pointed out I shouldn’t regret meeting that person because if I hadn’t of met them then I wouldn’t have those two amazing gifts that I have. But the truth is I do have that regret and I battle in my head everyday with the fact that we have been let down by the person we love the most. I regret giving someone 14 years of my life, thats a massive part of my life I will never get back, I feel really sad for the time I have wasted. The truth is I fought to keep my family together but with only one party trying it was never going to happen. So after 14 years all I have been left with is sadness, emptiness, loneliness and regrets!
So it would appear …. Regrets ‘yes I have a few.’ I am going to try my hardest to make sure I do not have anymore regrets in my life. The only one I have in my life right now is a pretty big one so I do not have room for more. My children deserve something better in life than the crap they have been dealt. I don’t want them growing up having regrets so I am going to make sure I try my hardest for whats best for them. Its funny how the answer to that question changed in a matter of months. As I am writing this post I have Robbie Williams song ‘Regrets’ going around in my head like a stuck record it just won’t stop. Regrets do you have them??